Ting - ting - ting -ting - and the lightbulb goes on

Hellooooo my little sweetie pie (yes I could just eat you up), slowly but surely your are getting back to your normal bubbly self, the only problem now is you seem to be nauseous all the time, not sure if it is because you may be feeling a little constipated, although your tummy is working it is sort of like a putty and as daddy would say, little ironies, so daddy is going to take you to the paed for a check up and see what is what.

So mommy is really thinking about aunty Taryn (litte Mik's mommy) , she is really not feeling well, she is very sick and feeling down. I read her blog today and I just wish I could be there to give her a great big hug and have a good cry with her and be able to comfort her and say I know how you feel, something I think we both need.

I know for people not in the same situation or as I would normally say, the same roller coaster ride as us, this may sound strange, but reading aunty Taryn's blog today has finally hit the nail on the head for me, let the bell ring (ting -ting), or the light shine or knocked some sence into me. We have both blamed ourselves for you and little Mikayla having T18, asked ourselves what we could have done to make you "healthy", we have both asked why God didnt answer our prayers, but in fact GOD DID ANSWER OUR PRAYERS . All through our pregnancies, we asked for healthy babies and although you and little Miks both have T18, you are still healthy. You are as healthy as can be for a Trisomy 18 baby. Although there are times that you stop breathing and have to be fed through  Mic-key and although you have a cleft palet and rocker bottom feet and a slight case of club foot, and although there may be neurological problems and although your hands arent completely open as a normal baby's would be, and besides the nasty post nasal drip and the constipation, you are generally very healthy - and isnt that what we asked for? Healthy doesnt mean NO DISSABILITIES - healthy means no sickness. You dont have a sickness, you have an extra chromosome.

As hard as it is, it makes me feel better to know that God did think of me and daddy and of you, and that he did give us what we asked for. I didnt ask for a "normal" baby, I didnt ask for a baby that does not have Trisomy 18, I asked for a HEALTHY baby and that is exactly what I got. So thank you heavenly father for listening to my prayers, thank you for keeping our precious little boy healthy.

So I will be keeping aunty Taryn and little Mikayla in my prayers, I will be praying for their health and for them to keep strong. I will continue to pray for my healthy baby to remain healthy.

Love you lots little pumpkin