It has been a little over six months now your little body is whole and that you are running freely with our heavenly father - it feels like just the other day but yet a life time that you gained your wings.
Whilst you were with us big boy, we were forever counting and celebrating the days, weeks, months and years we had with you and cherished every moment, and now even when you are not with us, we are counting the days, weeks and months that you have been gone. I don't thing we really know how else to survive - just day by day I guess
The fact that Christmas is around the corner and it will be our first without you makes my heart shatter even more. I know its a time that we should celebrate and be thankful, but I am no where near that frame of mind, in actual fact I am not looking forward to it at all. Would be quite relieved if it never comes.
I know we have many "first" milestones that we still need to get through and maybe once we have gotten through all the very special days like birthdays, Christmas, Easter and other days, maybe then it might become a little easier, but somehow my heart tells me it will never become easier. You are our little boy, our little miracle and should be here with me and daddy and your sisters.
We shouldn't have to be living life without you - its just too hard L